Regret? What's that?

I almost wrote this post a few days ago, which would have been a mistake. Now I have had time to think it over and although I am portraying the same facts, the tone is a much more positive one.


I realized a few weeks ago that I wasn't happy with where I was, after thinking on reasons why this might be, I concluded that it was because I living with a lot of regret.  I wasn't following through on things, I wasn't giving it my all. I was complacent.  In other words, I was pathetic. That's how I saw it anyway.  Nothing worse than knowing you could have done more.


And that really is all you can do, because you can't control the outcome...as I have learned.


The cool thing was I didn't make a conscious decision that "I am going to live with no regrets", it was just kind of a reaction.  I realized I was naturally put more effort into things/projects/relationships and it felt so good. REALLY good.  So lesson learned right? Ha. Guess again.

Last week will go down as one of "those" weeks. Things started rough and didn't improve too much.  By the weekend I could look back at it as a learning experience but while it was going on it felt more like Chinese water torture.  So back to my point, I learned my lesson, then apparently needed to have it ingrained upon my mind because as I applied myself to things in a really big way, my fails became more and more epic. Which isn't too encouraging by the way, but the fact is I know that giving your all is a true principle, so I wasn't about to abandon it.  (SIDENOTE: giving your all doesn't make accepting defeat any easier, but it DOES bring peace.)  I saw these failures and haven't once thought "If I had only done more", because I had already done my best. That is a huge difference from weeks ago.  So, scars and all I felt kinda like this little guy.

 

He paid a price for what he attempted, but he is satisfied know that he at least tried.  I feel for ya little fella. 

So this is the part where it's good that I waited until now to write this, because I feel good now.  I have had time to feel bad for myself, and now I'm stronger.  I believe in the "No pain, no gain" train of thought, as well as the "When one door closes, another door opens" So I wouldn't do anything differently.  

Isn't life great? (everyone nod your heads) Yeah I know right? It really is, the ups and downs are what make it interesting.  If life was just a straight line the scenery would get pretty boring. So moral of the story: Do everything in you power to accomplish your goals, and think of your defeats this way "In the maze of life, every dead end you run into brings you one step closer to finding the exit." (I'm working on the copyrights for that right now.)

Later.