18.2 Days Later

It's weird how fast time flies between posts.  So as the title references the amount of time since my accident/last post, I wanted to explain my situation now. 

My car is back, got it this week, she looks better than the day I bought her.  My citation was equivalent to if I had gotten a ticket for going 9 over, so except for the increasing debt, I am pretty much back to normal...in some ways.

Remember what I said about being backed into a corner? Well I fought my way out.  I am by no means in control of everything now, but I have made some forward steps that give me more determination to do even better.  It's cool how the snowball effect can be positive as well, because for the most part in my life it's been only associated with negative things. I feel like I've matured due to these events. I thought I would just share some of the things I have changed/figured out due to the wreck. (Oh and by the way, don't think that all of these things will be in any way directly related to the crash, I've just been more aware of everything since it happened.)

1) Share your burdens, with friends and family, but most importantly with the one who invited us to take His yoke upon us. You're a fool to go it alone.
2) I'm trying to serve more, because the feeling you get from serving trumps self-indulgance every time.
3) I prefer to get up early to finish a project than to stay up until the wee hours.
4) I have been in Jimmer denial...I couldn't never get myself to say I like the kid, until I realized I had no valid to reason to not.  The boy has got game! (that doesn't mean i'm a BYU fan though...)
5) Golden opportunities are like LEGO bricks...all the pieces are there, but I have to make it happen, it doesn't assemble itself.
6) Border's is closing...that's actually not a good thing. I'm not sure what to do with myself now when I'm in town with an hour to kill...can we have a moment of silence?
7) I don't take nearly enough pictures of stuff...memorable things happen every day, although I don't think I'll go to the extent of carrying a camera on me at all times.
8) Loving those who speak ill of you is one of the hardest things to do, but it is one of the most rewarding as well.
9) I will make an awesome head of household. My wife and kids are going to love me. Seriously though, it sounds cocky, but my personality is so stewardship oriented that more likely than not, I am going to be a great patriarch.
10) Happiness is being able to laugh at your hardships, where as misery is complaining that you don't have enough blessings.

yeah....all that in 18.2 days. Crazy I know, but that's the way the cookie crumbles, when you think you can't take anymore trials, get your notepad ready because that's when you're finally humble enough to be instructed.

Life is so grand folks. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise, I was talking to a friend this week, and I realized that if I paired up a blessing with every misfortune, I would run out of trials long before the good stuff.

Posse out.  Until next time.

P.S. for those who have been here before you will notice that I changed the decor of my blog, let me know what you think of it. (I designed the header myself on Photoshop.)

Yep...that just happened.

I realize that I have gone over a month without posting the conclusion to my "magic hour" series, but don't get excited...this isn't it. I have other things on my mind. Today I went through an experience that threw me for a loop, I was going to class this morning, and something happened...I didn't make it to class! Why? because I wrecked my car. Yep...that just happened.  I really wasn't exactly needing something like this in my life right now...my finances are already tight and my schedule is too busy to be depending on rides from people. (Keep in mind I bought this car two months ago.) Which begs the question: WHY ME? That's kind of what I've been thinking about recently.

Thing is, it's not really a "why out of all the people in the world did this happen to me" type wonder, I guess it's more appropriately "WHY NOW?" I am a strong believer that the Lord does everything for a purpose, often times these are mysterious to my mortal eyes, but when I push through, once I get to the other side of a trial I look back and say "oh, I guess that really was necessary."  I am totally at a loss this time. My life has been full of frustrations recently, mostly just me not feeling like I am fulfilling my potential, lack of motivation, etc. ya know, the usual suspects.  So at first I was dumbfounded as to why this happened now, before I even got those problems taken care of.  Through the day though I have reflected a lot on this, and the conclusion I have reached is that it was necessary to push me in the right direction. I have known about these other things for a while, but I haven't really done much about them, now with my car wreck on top of everything, I am kind of like a badger backed into a corner in the sense that I am now near breaking point, and I have to fight my way out. 

Me today

I really don't know what to expect in the weeks to come, but I do know that I will become more dependent on the Lord, I do know that I will become stronger, and I do know that I will one day look back fondly on this day because of the changes that it wrought in me.

"My son, peace be unto thy soul; thine adversity and thine afflictions shall be but a small moment...Thou art not yet as Job; thy friends do not contend against thee...if thou endure it well, God shall exalt thee on high."                      D&C 121: 7-8, 10

Try having a pity party while reading that!