Yep...that just happened.

I realize that I have gone over a month without posting the conclusion to my "magic hour" series, but don't get excited...this isn't it. I have other things on my mind. Today I went through an experience that threw me for a loop, I was going to class this morning, and something happened...I didn't make it to class! Why? because I wrecked my car. Yep...that just happened.  I really wasn't exactly needing something like this in my life right now...my finances are already tight and my schedule is too busy to be depending on rides from people. (Keep in mind I bought this car two months ago.) Which begs the question: WHY ME? That's kind of what I've been thinking about recently.

Thing is, it's not really a "why out of all the people in the world did this happen to me" type wonder, I guess it's more appropriately "WHY NOW?" I am a strong believer that the Lord does everything for a purpose, often times these are mysterious to my mortal eyes, but when I push through, once I get to the other side of a trial I look back and say "oh, I guess that really was necessary."  I am totally at a loss this time. My life has been full of frustrations recently, mostly just me not feeling like I am fulfilling my potential, lack of motivation, etc. ya know, the usual suspects.  So at first I was dumbfounded as to why this happened now, before I even got those problems taken care of.  Through the day though I have reflected a lot on this, and the conclusion I have reached is that it was necessary to push me in the right direction. I have known about these other things for a while, but I haven't really done much about them, now with my car wreck on top of everything, I am kind of like a badger backed into a corner in the sense that I am now near breaking point, and I have to fight my way out. 

Me today

I really don't know what to expect in the weeks to come, but I do know that I will become more dependent on the Lord, I do know that I will become stronger, and I do know that I will one day look back fondly on this day because of the changes that it wrought in me.

"My son, peace be unto thy soul; thine adversity and thine afflictions shall be but a small moment...Thou art not yet as Job; thy friends do not contend against thee...if thou endure it well, God shall exalt thee on high."                      D&C 121: 7-8, 10

Try having a pity party while reading that!